Lazy in a nutshell

so dogma is like a postulate, it doesn't have to be proven to be right, however, some people don't believe its right, its not universal law.

Exactly! The only difference I can conceive between dogma and a postulate is that a postulate is understood/accepted by both parties, making a need for proof unnecessary, while dogma need only be accepted without understanding by the party being fed the dogma.

about sigils. this is what i get from it, they are only used to reinforce your prayers, ill use it in terms i can put it in >.< its used to reinforce faith until your faith is strong enough you don't have to use them anymore. faith being what your trying to accomplish.

I'm not quite sure I explained it properly then. The message I was trying to convey is that prayer and sigilcraft follow the same process, yet belong to two separate paradigms. Prayer involves a belief in an external entity, such as God, whereas sigilcraft does not.

but I do believe you can learn from going outside these "walls" because its a good learning experience

This is what I try to do myself - I often feel that both religion and science are filled with examples of dogma and expected values where the occult seems to be more focused with the pursuit of knowledge and personal development.

which can put me into sort of a gnosis state, which i believe is forbidden in Christianity, its too dangerous, in my eyes.

I think you would benefit greatly from reading about Gnostic Christianity and following what interests you from there, for I'm not quite sure you've grasped the idea of gnosis correctly. At a base level, it simply involves a style of inhibitory meditation with the aim of achieving a silence of the mind, to either gain a clearer insight into the subconscious or to consider an issue without premature mental bias. Gnosis itself simply means 'knowledge', though I find it more of a mental state in which the acquisition of knowledge is smoother and more accurate. There are a number of Christians who believe that a gnostic state is the most able to read the meaning behind the Bible, and who take studies in Gnosis alongside Bible Studies in order to gain a fuller understanding of their faith. As before, many of the techniques I may advocate have very practical applications even within your faith, and I hope that in outlining a few of them and how I use them, that you can further your own investigations and perhaps strengthen your faith.

I look forward to hearing your thoughts

Have fun at your party!